Geode
He wrote a simple poem, the kind best read
alone,
no pretences, or awkward dictionary interruptions.
But,
one line went around in an intriguing way.
It was broader, deeper than what
I had first seen.
I inserted myself into the crevice, pushed
against
walls of understanding, until
the whole thing fell apart in my
head,
and what I found inside those words
was magic
Shirley
Alexander
2010
27 May 2023
06 June 2011
But I'm Still Waiting
The Waiting Game
My Windstream Official Telephone Directory
contains no listing for Soul Mate,
business or residential.
A broader search on Google Maps informs
there exists an error of insufficient information;
Destination entered cannot be displayed.
People Search dot com wants cold cash,
but they are certain you do exist…somewhere.
Meanwhile, expectations dwindle
down this lonely country road.
Shirley Alexander
2011
My Windstream Official Telephone Directory
contains no listing for Soul Mate,
business or residential.
A broader search on Google Maps informs
there exists an error of insufficient information;
Destination entered cannot be displayed.
People Search dot com wants cold cash,
but they are certain you do exist…somewhere.
Meanwhile, expectations dwindle
down this lonely country road.
Shirley Alexander
2011
03 June 2011
A Tribute to my Father
What My Father Planted
He was a short man,
but there was a certain way he stood;
his silhouette strong and familiar
like a steeple in times of worry.
It was a determined stance,
glance to sun, hand shading frown,
tongue moisture over dry lips.
He timed breaths by till of hard soil.
If he chanced to catch me watching,
he was quick to harvest a smile.
We’ll be okay when it rains.
God watches over farmers and fools.
He was a short man,
but there was a certain way he stood,
tall and strong like a church steeple
towering toward heaven.
Shirley Alexander
2011
25 May 2011
Ghost Prints
Ghost Prints
Walk softly, the old woman said.
Leave nothing disturbed.
Children and warriors knelt near campfires
to be warmed by the wisdom of her life.
They left no path through green woods,
thanked Mother Earth when they hunted.
prayed the good soil of their bones
would replenish what was taken.
I think of my ancestors when I walk in forests.
I think how this land must have been graceful,
accepting the music of soft footprints on ground,
leaving nothing disturbed.
I think of them, too, when I walk here,
where wisdom of elders is locked in antiseptic halls,
and grey city streets are paved
with deep prints in stone.
Shirley Alexander
May, 2011
08 April 2011
Quench
(All art and photography displayed on this site is the original work and property of Shirley Alexander)
Quench
Maybe you ask;
Why do I carry the dream of us in my heart?
I think of your skin,
moist and heated under the glide of my fingers,
and the way your name is a salty sweet kiss
across my searching tongue.
Still, I cannot shape words into an answer.
Why?
Why does a traveler take a flask
into the desert?
Shirley Alexander
2009
Without A Proper Eulogy
(all art displayed on this site is the original work and property of Shirley Alexander)
Without A Proper Eulogy
I am as a miner on his mountain of grey,
calculating the loss of sweat for profit.
The land I hold writ to name my own
will choose to remember nothing of me,
save plastic scars and scent of dusty bones.
And when I am gone, mourners will rush
to add insult on the careless print that was me.
They will stack weak stone tall in my honor
where wild flowers should forever be free to grow.
And I will sigh into the dirt, and mourn all losses.
Shirley Alexander
2010
07 December 2010
Red Mourning
Red Mourning
The day we buried Eddie, it snowed.
We gathered like penguins on ice,
all in black; black suits, dresses,
black umbrellas turned against gusts.
Black veils shrouded our hearts in grief,
and draped into the open hole of his life.
But she stood like a wounded heart,
splayed and bleeding its fire,
dressed all in red; red dress, shoes,
red umbrella kissing the sky.
Scarlet veils bled love from her veins,
and dripped into the open whole of his life.
People will talk. She said nothing
until the last flower was laid in snow.
Red is my love’s favorite, she whispered
to those silent men with black shovels.
I want to know he looks down from heaven;
smiles me vibrant in this cold and lonely world.
Shirley Alexander
2010
The day we buried Eddie, it snowed.
We gathered like penguins on ice,
all in black; black suits, dresses,
black umbrellas turned against gusts.
Black veils shrouded our hearts in grief,
and draped into the open hole of his life.
But she stood like a wounded heart,
splayed and bleeding its fire,
dressed all in red; red dress, shoes,
red umbrella kissing the sky.
Scarlet veils bled love from her veins,
and dripped into the open whole of his life.
People will talk. She said nothing
until the last flower was laid in snow.
Red is my love’s favorite, she whispered
to those silent men with black shovels.
I want to know he looks down from heaven;
smiles me vibrant in this cold and lonely world.
Shirley Alexander
2010
Walking on the Dark Side of the Moon
(All photographs displayed on this site are the original work and property of Shirley Alexander)
Dark Side of the Moon
There was a time, I could shine.
When I thought of you, I could shine.
I stand alone under night heaven;
feel light on my upturned face.
Does it glow if you are not watching?
I might have been this moonlight,
a reflection of your distant fire.
But, I became the dark face
and she, your moon.
Somewhere inside, a new light burns.
It is a world without phases,
a place where day welcomes night
and returns to warm the morning.
I stand alone under night heaven.
There was a time, we could shine.
There was a place, I could burn.
Wings spread, a wiser phoenix
will rise from the ashes of your fire.
Do you shine if I am not watching?
Shirley Alexander
2010
Fear of Falling
Fear of Falling
Fifty years ago, my sister and I raced across a long, high porch;
jumped off the end to fly across daffodils and old barking dogs.
That was before my sister fell.
She sprained her arm on harder ground.
Afterward, I would run across the porch,
leap into abandon, arms open to sky.
My sister would run to the edge,
brake a full stop, sit down, and cry.
I never understood her fear of jumping,
or the tears she shed for what was lost.
I spent a lifetime long jumping from one thrill to the next, fearless.
Then, one day I took the highest leap, for love. Now I understand.
Shirley Alexander
2010
Fifty years ago, my sister and I raced across a long, high porch;
jumped off the end to fly across daffodils and old barking dogs.
That was before my sister fell.
She sprained her arm on harder ground.
Afterward, I would run across the porch,
leap into abandon, arms open to sky.
My sister would run to the edge,
brake a full stop, sit down, and cry.
I never understood her fear of jumping,
or the tears she shed for what was lost.
I spent a lifetime long jumping from one thrill to the next, fearless.
Then, one day I took the highest leap, for love. Now I understand.
Shirley Alexander
2010
25 September 2010
A Time To Break Down
(Photo: "Magnolia" by Shirley Alexander)
A Time to Break Down
Take care of what you hold now,
this pulsing mass you recognize as sex.
Listen intimately to soft noises in this room,
these clandestine whispers of you, owning me.
It is the urgent beat of my heart,
They are the cries of abandoned control
as it swells beyond my guard,
leaps into throat, slides across tongue,
slips from wet, swollen lips to land
mute, in the dry cup of your greedy hands.
Shirley Alexander
© 2010
17 August 2010
Bright, Shiny Days Like This
(Photo of entrance to Cowpens Revolutionary War Battlefield by Shirley Alexander)
Bright Shiny Days Like This
You see me turn in front of the long mirror,
adjust my skirt, frown at the reflection, and sigh.
Knowing I never take compliments for honest truth,
you offer anyway. You tell me I am beautiful.
Before I can stop my brain from reaching my mouth,
it spills: I am fifty-six and not getting younger, I retort.
I want to take it back, say thank you, tell you
I think you are beautiful too. Always.
You come to hold my chin firmly in your hand
and inspect my upturned face for wordless clues.
You are the woman I love. Always.
I feel that. I do know that. I see it in your eyes.
I am not afraid of wrinkles, or softness in places
that have forgotten to spring back when pressed.
Those things mean nothing in the whole reflection.
The real worry is that I am desperately in love.
I am in love with wind when it caresses tall grass,
with dance of sunlight through orange and green leaves,
with sparkle of water over smooth stones and moss;
I am in love with Life, and all the little wrinkles it gifts me.
I am in love with the echo of me in a granddaughter’s smile,
with the welcome awake hug of my son on new mornings,
with the rise and fall of your chest while you are sleeping;
I am in love with Life, and all the soft places it gifts me.
I count days; save them like bright shiny pennies in a jar.
I want to invest my time wisely, and see interest accumulate
in the form of days like this, when I catch your glance in a mirror,
and see my reflection slide back to beautiful in your eyes.
Shirley Alexander
14 May 2010
It's supper time; run like a jack rabbit!
Sunset in the Hayfield
Jack Rabbit knew I was watching,
waiting for the perfect shot.
He was taking his time, testing me.
Red Tailed Hawk was a swift arrow,
straight to target from an evening sky.
I sat in tall grass, not fifty feet away.
I was waiting for a shot like that.
Surprised, I had no time
to reach for camera.
Jack Rabbit was not waiting.
Surprised, he had no time
to reach for cover.
Shirley Anne Alexander
2010
11 April 2010
For Charles
Lab Partner, Chemistry 101
On the roof at Hoagies, we left our books open,
pages turning for the rare breath of wind.
September always remembered our names,
and pigeons left dry chalk calling cards
on our sun bleached lunch tables.
We ate Sweet Magnolia sandwiches, drank Coors
dark, foam kissed, and ice cold from the tap.
Conversation was easy, subjects heavy;
you solved my organic equations;
I explained oxidation reduction.
But, we never spoke of that other chemistry,
the class we knew we were destined to fail.
Back in the micro lab, sulfur acrid fumes mingled
with heady memories of Hoagie’s, and weed smoke
of others, who had chosen to lunch at Speedy’s house.
You opened a book, sparked your burner,
and prepared plates for a new inoculation.
I pulled our tray from the old autoclave,
washed tubes and tossed plastic Petri dishes.
All the germs of memory, raced into the drain.
Shirley Alexander
December 2009
On the roof at Hoagies, we left our books open,
pages turning for the rare breath of wind.
September always remembered our names,
and pigeons left dry chalk calling cards
on our sun bleached lunch tables.
We ate Sweet Magnolia sandwiches, drank Coors
dark, foam kissed, and ice cold from the tap.
Conversation was easy, subjects heavy;
you solved my organic equations;
I explained oxidation reduction.
But, we never spoke of that other chemistry,
the class we knew we were destined to fail.
Back in the micro lab, sulfur acrid fumes mingled
with heady memories of Hoagie’s, and weed smoke
of others, who had chosen to lunch at Speedy’s house.
You opened a book, sparked your burner,
and prepared plates for a new inoculation.
I pulled our tray from the old autoclave,
washed tubes and tossed plastic Petri dishes.
All the germs of memory, raced into the drain.
Shirley Alexander
December 2009
Woman
Plight or Privilege?
Life is a broken bowl, held together
by the cup of a tired woman‘s hands.
History is written in swirls of dishwater,
crusty scent of freshly baked bread,
quick tilling of hard garden soil,
the relenting sigh of turned down sheets.
She knows how to touch a child,
a friend, a neighbor, a lover;
wicks pain with warmth of heart,
easy, the way a hot iron eats wrinkles.
Woman is the keeper of secrets;
practiced and painted smile,
under storm of hurricane eyes.
Shirley Alexander
© 2010
Life is a broken bowl, held together
by the cup of a tired woman‘s hands.
History is written in swirls of dishwater,
crusty scent of freshly baked bread,
quick tilling of hard garden soil,
the relenting sigh of turned down sheets.
She knows how to touch a child,
a friend, a neighbor, a lover;
wicks pain with warmth of heart,
easy, the way a hot iron eats wrinkles.
Woman is the keeper of secrets;
practiced and painted smile,
under storm of hurricane eyes.
Shirley Alexander
© 2010
03 April 2010
Snow Storm
Snow Storm
You meant to bring ice cream, you said.
We sat in the sun room and watched
as heavy February rain
washed old leaves into muddy rows.
Wind slammed water against my tin roof that night,
and we moved our bodies to its ancient rhythm.
I laughed at our noises, and you kissed me until
hunger became greater than sound.
While we slept,
laced together under the cedar scent
of my grandmother’s knotted quilt,
rain changed to snow.
We had popovers, with butter
and berries, for breakfast.
You made coffee, and I lied
when I said it was perfect.
We sat on a sofa in the sun room,
watched snow falling, and I thought;
it would have been nice
to have ice cream.
Shirley Alexander
© 2010
You meant to bring ice cream, you said.
We sat in the sun room and watched
as heavy February rain
washed old leaves into muddy rows.
Wind slammed water against my tin roof that night,
and we moved our bodies to its ancient rhythm.
I laughed at our noises, and you kissed me until
hunger became greater than sound.
While we slept,
laced together under the cedar scent
of my grandmother’s knotted quilt,
rain changed to snow.
We had popovers, with butter
and berries, for breakfast.
You made coffee, and I lied
when I said it was perfect.
We sat on a sofa in the sun room,
watched snow falling, and I thought;
it would have been nice
to have ice cream.
Shirley Alexander
© 2010
Still Searching
Searching For A Reason
I will myself to look carefully before a leap;
protection from protruding blunts and jags.
You say my morning coffee is too strong,
and you don’t take cream. You fold the paper
back to arrival condition. It looks unread.
I fight the urge to pull apart section A from B;
look down, and stir the milk storm in my cup.
Such a pity I have discovered this one thing
so early on a Sunday; this creased difference.
And here was I, bringing a night to sunrise;
eager to believe I had finally found Mr. Right.
It’s lucky for me I was paying attention;
attuned to possibilities of impending failure.
Anyway, who bothers to stir black coffee?
Shirley Alexander
I will myself to look carefully before a leap;
protection from protruding blunts and jags.
You say my morning coffee is too strong,
and you don’t take cream. You fold the paper
back to arrival condition. It looks unread.
I fight the urge to pull apart section A from B;
look down, and stir the milk storm in my cup.
Such a pity I have discovered this one thing
so early on a Sunday; this creased difference.
And here was I, bringing a night to sunrise;
eager to believe I had finally found Mr. Right.
It’s lucky for me I was paying attention;
attuned to possibilities of impending failure.
Anyway, who bothers to stir black coffee?
Shirley Alexander
I Am Not The Dream
I Am Not The Dream
In your reality, I have no pulse. I heard you whisper.
Did you know I felt you whisper? I heard you
whisper my name, and you put it to a dream.
See the swell of my warm lips, the fire of my father’s eyes,
the sure lift of my mother’s chin? Blood rushes here;
the blood of a thousand generations of proud lives in me.
And I begged you. I begged you to see me, to know me.
I begged you to love me, while a thousand generations
of proud ears closed themselves to spare me shame.
You turned away. I prayed for you; prayed for you
to know touch in a place real for you. I prayed for you,
while a thousand generations offered voices to heaven for me.
And one morning, I was awakened by a voice. My voice,
the voice of a thousand generations, called your name.
Sunlight warmed my lips, lifted my chin; opened my eyes to see.
And the face of a thousand generations of proud
looked sharp from my great grandmother’s rosewood mirror;
looked into my eyes and asked why I had cried your name.
I touched a finger to real blood warmed lips and smiled.
And with the voice of a thousand generations of proud
I answered for all of us, ‘Hush now, he was only a dream’.
Shirley Alexander
© 2009
In your reality, I have no pulse. I heard you whisper.
Did you know I felt you whisper? I heard you
whisper my name, and you put it to a dream.
See the swell of my warm lips, the fire of my father’s eyes,
the sure lift of my mother’s chin? Blood rushes here;
the blood of a thousand generations of proud lives in me.
And I begged you. I begged you to see me, to know me.
I begged you to love me, while a thousand generations
of proud ears closed themselves to spare me shame.
You turned away. I prayed for you; prayed for you
to know touch in a place real for you. I prayed for you,
while a thousand generations offered voices to heaven for me.
And one morning, I was awakened by a voice. My voice,
the voice of a thousand generations, called your name.
Sunlight warmed my lips, lifted my chin; opened my eyes to see.
And the face of a thousand generations of proud
looked sharp from my great grandmother’s rosewood mirror;
looked into my eyes and asked why I had cried your name.
I touched a finger to real blood warmed lips and smiled.
And with the voice of a thousand generations of proud
I answered for all of us, ‘Hush now, he was only a dream’.
Shirley Alexander
© 2009
An Important Call
An Important Call
He was born on a hot July morning.
I could feel discomfort drift
from wary and avoiding glances.
One single line across a tiny palm
is an indicator extreme;
hard news to be delivered.
A test for Down Syndrome took
two weeks in nineteen eighty-two,
and everyone knows the rules;
a nurse calls to spill good news.
For everything else,
doctors call to talk plans.
So, I knew when I heard his voice,
words slow and cautious,
asking me to find a seat.
I dropped a pan of hot grease
and wasted fried chicken
on my bare summer legs.
It wasn’t from anger or shock;
I was in such a frantic rush
to get to his little blue room.
Unaware of burns and blisters,
I held my sleeping angel tightly,
in love’s sheltering embrace.
Shirley Alexander
Presents From Jim
Presents From Jim
Nineteen sixty-nine. The autumn fair was in Athens.
I was sixteen. You had finished your senior year.
You threw well aimed darts, and loaded my arms
with cheap stuffed toys; soft treasures for my bed.
Arms and objections occupied, I leaned tight
while you held me from behind, whispering
unfamiliar syllables into my warming ear.
I remember your hands, and how I wanted
the force of them firm around my breasts;
fingertips exploring chilled hard nipples.
Old enough to want, too young to recognize
the scent you were leaving on my expectations.
You stood silhouetted against carnival lights;
Ferris wheel colors haloing your dark hair.
I grabbed my instamatic; snapped a hunk of you
as you left for California. And I am still here.
Shirley Alexander
© 2009
Nineteen sixty-nine. The autumn fair was in Athens.
I was sixteen. You had finished your senior year.
You threw well aimed darts, and loaded my arms
with cheap stuffed toys; soft treasures for my bed.
Arms and objections occupied, I leaned tight
while you held me from behind, whispering
unfamiliar syllables into my warming ear.
I remember your hands, and how I wanted
the force of them firm around my breasts;
fingertips exploring chilled hard nipples.
Old enough to want, too young to recognize
the scent you were leaving on my expectations.
You stood silhouetted against carnival lights;
Ferris wheel colors haloing your dark hair.
I grabbed my instamatic; snapped a hunk of you
as you left for California. And I am still here.
Shirley Alexander
© 2009
Memories of 1963
Memories of 1963
The crop was heavy that year.
Rain had come in torrents,
and then left.
Green stalks and dried mud
became an endless blanket of white.
It was the beautiful land of cotton,
under a blue October sky.
The pickers stood nervous in line;
lean men with hungry eyes.
Loads of sacks and sweat
sat waiting to be weighed and paid.
Mama kept her sharp eye on a rusty scale,
paying bill by bill;
Thank you. Come again tomorrow.
Daddy loaded trucks for the gin.
Bales will pile high, he said.
It will be a good year, he said.
Christmas is dead ahead, he said.
The one thing we never saw coming,
was a nation swelled with grief
in the too near November.
Shirley Alexander
© 2007
author's note: For younger readers, and anyone who is not aquainted with American history, President John F. Kennedy was shot and killed on November 22, 1963.)
The crop was heavy that year.
Rain had come in torrents,
and then left.
Green stalks and dried mud
became an endless blanket of white.
It was the beautiful land of cotton,
under a blue October sky.
The pickers stood nervous in line;
lean men with hungry eyes.
Loads of sacks and sweat
sat waiting to be weighed and paid.
Mama kept her sharp eye on a rusty scale,
paying bill by bill;
Thank you. Come again tomorrow.
Daddy loaded trucks for the gin.
Bales will pile high, he said.
It will be a good year, he said.
Christmas is dead ahead, he said.
The one thing we never saw coming,
was a nation swelled with grief
in the too near November.
Shirley Alexander
© 2007
author's note: For younger readers, and anyone who is not aquainted with American history, President John F. Kennedy was shot and killed on November 22, 1963.)
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